Am I rushing God?

Through my shallow knowledge about God, I know that God has prepared the best for me. He is God who provides and He is God who knows the desire of my heart. He is God with the perfect timing for everything that is happening and will happen in my life. It is weird though cause it seems like I keep rushing God for one matter.

I thought as time goes by I would be able to erase 'it' from my mind. But I did a mistake if not two: instead of deleted 'it', I cut 'it' and consciously pasted 'it' back to my soul. As people always say "what's deep in your soul will come to your mind", I'm unable to delete 'it' from my mind. This inability kills. 'It' kills.

I'm not ready to die so I'm rushing God. Not to give me ability to delete 'it' from my mind and soul but to make 'it' stay forever in my soul. I'm rushing God to make 'it' feel the same. He is God of impossible so why can't He make this one possible?

Am I rushing God? Yes, I am.

X       : You’ve improved a lot since last year

Me     : Oh, thank you!

X       : Yeah, you’ve learnt much and that BAB presentation..

Me     : it was massive! I had no idea about was would happen

X       : but you’ve done it!

Me     : oh well… I’m glad to be a part of the team

X       : and we’re glad to have you

 

I don’t care if it’s just some cheesy compliment. I’m glad to be a SIFErs :)

7.12

'Please proceed and evacuate in an orderly manner'

'Please proceed and evacuate in an orderly manner'

...

7.14

'What is going on?'

'I think we have to evacuate ourselves'

7.20

*capek naik tangga ke lantai 3*

'Please proceed and evacuate in an orderly manner'

'Ih, kenapa gak dimatiin sih! Berisik banget!'

10.30

Arghh... I miss my class! Alrite, I'm going to the 4 one.

15.26

duduk-duduk di depan komputer di Eastern Precinct yang baru sambil mikir:

'kenapa komputernya cuma segini ya?'

... jauh lebih melelahkan daripada sekolah.

Apalagi kalo jalan di tempat asing dingin-dingin.

Dilanjutkan pula dengan jalan ke 3 suburb pake high heels.

Ditambah 1 farewell dan 1 meeting.

*nguap*

Bobo ah!

-jn

PS: Brisbane tinggal 2 hari lagi oiy! Eksaitit banget! :D

Today was so special coz I had my first paid work :)

The work was so much fun. I was working for 9,5 hours but I don’t really feel tired now because what I did was basically playing. I played ping-pong twice, played blackjack, lego, uno and some other games, chatted with my colleague and I even watched Ratatouilie! [one of the kids was asking me whether she can get some nap while we’re watching. Lol.]

Can you imagine how fun it was? :D Big thanks to the kids who made my day: the talkative David, little heartbreaker Brooke, sweet Abi, ‘plaid girl’ Amanda, Matt the card dealer, Dylan the ‘tap!’, Anna, Calvin, Phillip, Leslie and some other kids whose names I can’t remember.

One thing that amazed me was the fact that they were so independent. I think Indonesian kids should learn how to be independent. During the morning tea, they ate neatly and acted nicely. And the most ‘breathtaking’ moment for me was when I saw a prep student [about 5 years old] had his orange peeled by himself and he threw the skin nicely to the bin afterwards! It was like W.o.W. – WOW! Probably for some people it’s just a common thing but for me it’s a really nice thing to see.

So my conclusion after my first paid work:

1. NEVER work in a child care service if you don’t like children. You’ll get stress and depress because they keep on running and yelling.
2. IF I work like today for 10 consecutive days, I would be able to buy a DSLR camera with high specs. Haha.

Anyway, I made Bacon & Cheese Quiche last Thursday and I turned up quite good. Practice does make you better :D

You need:

 

Bacon & Onion                                                                Swiss Cheese

and you also need Milk, Flour, Salt and don't forget: a frozen pastry. baked-baked-baked

and here's the result:

I spent my $50 Myer Gift Card on baking and cooking tools [and hoping that I’ll bake more when I have more tools. Lol]

‘til later, adios!

Ini jam dua pagi. Tapi gue merasa pengen banget ngeblog.

Pengen banget.

Dua hari ini gue seneng banget. Exam udah selesai [jangan tanya: ’how was your exam?’], gue potong rambut, teman-teman yang randomly ngajak keluar [dan tentu saja menguras isi dompet. Ihik.], ngobrol panjang-lebar sampe ngantuk, belajar jadi shop keeper di Oxfam, yah.. life never been this good since this semester started.

 

Tadi gue nyari-nyari kerjaan lagi. Emang sih gue udah diterima di Wesley, tapi itu bener-bener small commitment. Trus gue emang volunteer di Oxfam mulai this week, tapi itu lagi-lagi cuma small commitment. Gue pengen banget kerja this holiday supaya bisa punya uang yang banyak. Hahaha. Tapi pas gue buka email uni, gue baru sadar kalo gue ada komitmen di SIFE! Gue lupa banget kalo gue perlu pergi ke studio and kitchen yang project gue bantuin tiap hari Selasa. Hal yang udah gak gue lakuin selama semester ini karena jadwal hari Selasa gue bentrok sama jam konsultasi di studio. Sekarang karena semester ini udah berakhir, gue mesti mulai balik ke studio dan kitchen lagi. Tapi gue semangat banget soalnya temen gue yang pergi ke sana 2 minggu terakhir ini bilang kalo progressnya bagus banget dan kita sekarang mesti bikin budgeting analysis and forecasting buat kitchen. Trus dia juga bilang kalo orang-orang di studio pengen banget ketemu orang yang bisa bantuin mereka buat financial planning. Gue jadi pengen banget cepet-cepet belajar personal finance biar gue punya ilmu yang beneran buat bantuin mereka. Abisnya, semua anak project gue setidaknya udah 2nd year dan cuma gue yang masih 1st year. Sedih banget.

 

Dan ngomong-ngomong soal SIFE, hari Senin besok ternyata udah farewell party SIFE buat yang mau pergi ke Brisbane. Dan ternyata lagi, ke Brisbane itu tinggal 2 minggu. Gue belom punya sepatu resmi gitu buat dipake ke Brisbane. Hah...merepotkan. Ternyata semuanya berjalan sangat cepat ya...

 

Terakhir, gue lagi baca buku Brida by Paulo Coelho. Bukunya bagus dan banyak kalimat bagus di dalemnya. Salah satunya [yang ada di back covernya juga]

            ’But how will I know who my Soulmate is?’

            ‘By taking risks. By risking failure, disappointment, disillusion, but never ceasing in your search for Love. As long as you keep looking, you will triumph in the end.’

I’m in pandamonium mood now. That silly fat panda seriously made my day.

My finance was okay but thanks to Poo, the girls and our lovely ‘girlfriend’ who cheered me up (:

I wish exam is over by now. Sigh.

Mark 11:24 - Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours

After edited some articles for SEGAR (my church newsletter) and sent it to Lisa, I find myself writing this journal whilst I’m pretty sure that I shouldn’t do this. Haha.

My ‘virtual’ girls and I are restarting our prayer roster and so far it’s good. It pushes me to pray more as I didn’t pray that much last month and even ‘til last week. But last Monday I found myself woke up after a very weird dream and I thought I need to pray more. I’ve asked my mentor and also Le about this and they said: ‘You need to pray. We’ll wait and see what will happen.’

Somehow I hope that things would go like what my mentor said and seriously Lord, I would be very grateful (:

I just watched The Chronicles of Narnia: Prince Caspian and it was awesome! The first 30 minutes was quite boring though and the war scene was as I’ve expected: not cool. Other than those two things, I love it. The morals behind the movie were good to be learnt and yes, Edward looked much cooler in this movie. I can see that he would look more handsome in the next movie ;p

Okayyyy, enough for now. This weekend was a waste of time and money. Now I’m in desperate need of books and notes -.-“

Sampe hari ini gue masih dengan suksesnya gak belajar buat exam. Hiks banget. Tapi gpp, yang penting kan hati senang dan wajah tersenyum gembira *halah*

Tadi seperti biasa gue, Epin, Itak dan Melia keluar lagi. Awalnya sih kita mau ngerayain ulang taun Mel. Apa daya, ternyata Mel masih di Burwood buat ngerjain tugasnya. Yasudah deh, akhirnya kita makan dan end up di Starbucks. Setelah ngobrol ngalor-ngidul, kita menyadari kalo ternyata mami-mami tercinta kita belakangan ini suka banget ngeributin tentang cowo. Si Mel bilang Maminya last week ngomong gini: ’gpp sering keluar ketemu temen, ngomongin movies and guys.’ Ahahahaa. Si tante bisa aja! Kalo Epin beda lagi. Dia gak secara langsung ditanyain karena nyokapnya lebih suka tanya-tanya lewat Cicinya. Hihihi. Kalo gue sendiri, si Papi & Mami 2 minggu lalu bisa iseng banget ngomongin soal cowo. Yah...secara saat ini gue lagi gak pengen-pengen banget punya pacar, gue gak terlalu mikirin juga sih. Kalo kata Lewi: ’jangan terlalu pilih-pilih loe! Ntar malah gak dapet apa-apa.’ Ah anyway, mau milih darimana? Satu juga belom ada yang nyantol di mata dan di hati. Hihihi.

Dan labih tepatnya lagi, stelah kita lanjut ngobrol kita merasa kalo mereka sering tanya-tanya – terutama nyokapnya si Mel – gara-gara Cici-Cici kita tuh pada belom punya pacar juga! Ditambah fakta bahwa kelihatannya mereka tenang-tenang saja dengan status jomblo mereka, semakin paniklah para Mami. Jadi gue cuma bisa berdoa supaya Cici-Cici kami cepat melepas status jomblo [dan lajang kalo bisa!] supaya 1) si Mami terfokus pada Cici dan pacarnya, 2) siapa tau bisa ngenalin kita sama cowo-cowo berkualitas.

Semoga Tuhan Yang Mahakuasa *istilahnya Le* mengabulkan doa gue dan memberikan yang terbaik kepada kita semua. Amin.

Karena keasikan bengong-bengong, gue kaget banget waktu handphone gue bunyi. Haiz! Ternyata yang nelpon itu Marcus. Dia nanya gue mau ikut ke Brisbane apa enggak. Wah, jelas mau donk! Tapi karena gak sepenuhnya disubsidi, gue bilang gue mesti tanya papi mami dulu. Begitu mereka bilang okeh, gue langsung telpon Marcus dan yeay! I’m going to Brisbane on 10-14 July for the national competition. Biarpun cuma jadi penggembira, gue excited banget! Hehehe. Semoga Melbourne Uni menang national competitionnya trus melajulah kita ke Singapore!

Terus-terus, minggu kemarin bener hore banget. Ceritanya nih, mentang-mentang udah gak ada assignment dan test, gue gak pengen diem-diem di rumah. Jadilah dari hari Kamis gue main mulu. Quality time sama Ryl dan Topan [halah!], hangout sama cewe-cewe, jalan-jalan ke Chapel, ’maksa’ Nadia nginep di rumah dan akhirnya komsel yang unforgettable karena kita main rambut [hihihi..kasian deh Okta!] dan kita pake bahasa Inggris! [gara-gara ada housematenya Feli yang orang Mauritius]. Lha iya, unforgettable banget soalnya semuanya orang Indo yang tiap kali ketemu selalu ngoceh pake bahasa Indo trus tiba-tiba semua jadi dalam bahasa Inggris. Hahaha. Trus hari Sabtunya muka gue sunburn habis bantuin Gardiner Festival dan malemnya ada hangout lagi. Hasilnya, hari minggu gue capekkkk banget dan uang gue berkurang secara drastis. Hiks. Gue tidur sore lama banget sampe rasanya gue pengen banget tidur ampe Senin pagi. Hiks lagi. Tapi gue merasa sehat banget lho soalnya gue makan enak-enak terus. Hahaha. Makasih banget buat Feli yang sudah menyediakan masakan yang begitu enak dan sedap! (: yum!

Dan gara-gara liat Feli punya buku resep sendiri, gue jadi makin terobsesi buat melakukan hal yang sama. Kemarin itu gara-gara liat film seri Korea, gue udah kepengen. Sekarang jadi tambah kepengen. Masalahnya cuma satu [tapi paling mendasar]: gue kalo masak gak pernah pake takaran yang tepat. Gimana donk menurut loe...

Livy kemarin ulang taun ke 22. OMG! Gila banget! I still remember when we were celebrating her 20^th birthday. It feels like ages but when I called her yesterday, ahhhh.. gue kayaknya gak terima aja kalo dia udah 22. Soalnya gue kenal dia udah lama banget banget dan perasaan kalo dia udah 22… oh tidakkk, gue tidak bisa berkata apa-apa. Yah, intinya sih sebentar lagi dia kawin. Hahahhaa. Iya gak vy?

 

 

 

 

Surprise buat Livy pas umur 20

Semoga kamu bisa menjadi ibu guru yang baik ya sayang (:

 

 

 

 

 

PS: belom ada niat sama sekali buat belajar karena gue merasa semester ini gue rajin banget! *yea riteeee*

“To make the right choices in life, you have to get in touch with your soul. To do this, you need to experience solitude, which most people are afraid of, because in the silence you hear the truth and know the solutions”

Deepak Chopra

 

 

PS: We’ve made our choice and I’ll respect yours as I hope you’ll respect mine (:

Postingan berikut ditulis dalam bahasa Indonesia tercinta agar yang bersangkutan tidak mengerti. Hihihi.

Yah, setelah ada beberapa pertanyaan tentang siapakah tokoh yang gue maki-maki di postingan sebelomnya, gue merasa kalo gue harus cerita lebih jelas. Jadi begini: ada seorang cowo di kelas tutorial gue yang menyebalkan. Gue tau kalo orang-orang sini suka banget jawab-jawab pertanyaan dan cari perhatian tutor. Gue gak masalah sama itu dan sering kali gue merasa mereka ngebantu banget karena mereka suka nanya hal-hal yang gak ada di pikiran gue. Tapi masalahnya, orang yang satu ini suka banget nyelak omongan orang dan bisa aja gituh ngomong seenak udelnya kalo pertanyaan orang itu bodoh dan gak penting. Aduh mas, pertanyaan loe hari itu juga bodoh banget lah.. orang-orang semuanya udah pada ngerti tapi loe nanya terus-terusan. Mbok ya dipikir dan dicerna dulu baru ditanya... tapi untungnya, gue beda stream lecture sama dia dan dia pindah kelas tutorial! [amazing abis di minggu-minggu terakhir ini] Itu dia kenapa gue yakin banget gue gak bakal ketemu dia lagi sampe semester depan [itupun kalo kita ada pelajaran yang sama!]. Tapi sayangnya kemarin ini dia rese lagi. Dia bilang ke salah satu anak di tutorial gue kalo dia pindah karena merasa anak-anak di tutorial gue itu suka nanya-nanya hal yang gak penting dan dia merasa itu membuang waktunya dia. Eh-eh, terserah deh ya...

Yasudah deh, gue males ngomonginnya lagi. Amit-amit deh gue ketemu yang model begini lagi…

Now for the fun part! 4 of my friends were having their birthdays last weekend. Mike, Sarita, Cindy and Mathew, happy birthday for all of you (: Cindy’s birthday surprise was great. We successfully made her surprised [which is the substantial part of a surprise!] and it’s good to know that she’s so happy.

and I had a nice weekend though I dislocated my shoulder again on Sat T.T This thing is becoming lousier than ever. I was a bit pissed off but anyway, thanks to my super housemates for being there. I love you girls! *muacks*

Have I told you that I got a job? Hohoho. I’ll work at Wesley College’s after school program care center. I hope those children would act nice and cute as their appearances. Otherwise, I won’t know what to do. FYI, I spent $105.00 to make the police check and Working With Children Card. Luckily, the hourly rate of this job is quite high so I hope I can get my money back within a month. Hahaha.

LOL!

I just found out that there’s a gay guy who thinks that he’s super smart but obviously, he does NOT! oh sweetheart, please, I don't want to associate you with negative things as you are actually a nice guy but I couldn't help my self now. Your words are trash and um,, I think that's all I want to say. It's not good to say something and regret it later, rite?

 

Well, I need to remind you – in case we meet later – though I think it would be in months time – that we should pretend nothing happen between us. Whatever is in the net never comes to real life, they say.

 

xoxo

Weezzzzz!

Finally I’m done with my finance assignment and now I only have Macro assignment and PBL test to go. This week [week 9 in uni] was just ok. It was not as though as I thought it would be. What are more important now, I’m going to have an interview on Monday and on Tuesday I’m going to give a presentation in my oh-so-lovely SIFE BAB [Business Advisory Board]. They’re going to choose the presenter for the national competition in Brisbane. Don’t really bother if I’m not chosen as the presenter as long as I’m going to Brisbane. Hahahaha.

Pi, Mi and Jer are not coming this winter so I hope I’ll get heaps of things to do. I don’t want slacking around all winter and getting fatter each day [somehow I imagine myself sitting down under my super warm blanket with laptop on my lap, eating cookies and drinking hot chocolate].

 

Weezzzzzzzzzz! busy week ahead. I hope I can cope with everything (:

JAGOAN KAMPUNG hari ini lebih yahud dari kemarin. Pengen banget rasanya semua orang bisa kayak Christy yang dateng 2 hari berturut-turut supaya pada ngeliat betapa kerennya JAGOAN KAMPUNG hari ini. Hehehe. Tapi seperti kata Pak Gubernur Yudha, semuanya adalah proses. Intinya, kekerenan acara hari ini adalah karena kekurangan-kekurangan yang terjadi kemarin. Setuju banget gue sama hal ini dan emang itu beneran terjadi sama hidup kita kan? Gue bisa main piano karena gue pernah latian. Loe ada yang jago fotografi karena loe foto terus-terusan. Betul?

 

Dan gue lebih setuju lagi sama Bang Edo karena dia bilang lewat Parcel ini, semuanya jadi lebih deket. Lebih terasa kekeluargaannya gitu. Sebelom gue ikutan Parcel, gue gak gitu kenal deh sama anak-anak Gempar walopun gue udah ada di Gempar setaon lebih dikit. Emang ada faktor ‘salah gue’ karena gue gak ikut ministry apa-apa. Wakakaka. But anyway, yang dibilang Edo bener banget (: dan gue mengamini yang Edo bilang kalo mungkin biarpun firman yang disampein itu gak diinget sekarang, nanti, 1 ato 2 bulan lagi pasti akan ada hal-hal yang ngingetin mereka sama firman itu. Aminnnn

 

Ok, soal JAGOAN KAMPUNG udahan dulu. Gue mau cerita soal volunteer work gue hari ini. Gue tadi ikutan volunteer buat STARLIGHT DAY fund raising di Collins St dari jam 10 ampe 1. I found it fun! Well, 1 reason [probably] is because I enjoy talking to strangers. Wakakaka. Waktu gue nyampe di tempatnya kan gue gak kenal gitu sama siapa-siapa. Tapi orang-orang di sana ramah dan mereka asik buat diajak ngobrol. Tugas gue disana adalah jadi mbak-mbak yang bawa kotak donation and some stuffs such as keyrings, wands, pens and badges, and attract people so they will give some donation or buy our merchandises. Akhirnya gue ngerasain juga yang namanya nyari sumbangan di jalanan ;p Hahahaha. The best part of this volunteer work is when you see kids staring at you with that ‘mommy, can I have one of the wands please?’ look and their parents just can’t resist it. Lebih lagi, rasanya seneng banget waktu kotak sumbangan yang gue pegang jadi makin berat dan ada banyak uang kertas di dalemnya (:

 

Another super FUNtastic day for me and thank You sooooo much for creating it. Love you so!

 

PS: assignments due on Friday 9^th, Monday 12^th, Thursday 15^th and a test on Friday 16^th. Why oh why?!

JAGOAN KAMPUNG hari ini sukses!

Cuma 3 baris paling belakang yang kosong dan gue yakin bakal di payback sama kursi-penuh-banget-sampe-atas besok. Semangat!

PS: I do believe that my God is mighty to safe (:

Seheboh itukah RONCAR?

*RONCARRRRRRRR*

 

Sebagus itukah Januarisman?

*dapatkah aku memeluknyaaa…*

 

Jadi penasaran… jadi pengen nonton tv Indonesia… jadi pengen pulang...hahahahaha *alesan aja!*

Amazing! The last two weeks were so amazing and I’m just soooo happy! I don’t know, mungkin karena banyak kerjaan gitu kali ya belakangan ini jadi gue happy bgt. You know, I love to slack around tapi gue juga suka bgt kalo ada banyak hal yang jadi tanggung jawab gue. Ya tugas, ya kostum, ya SIFE, ya test.. tapi gpp deh. Gue seneng banget baget! Hihihi. Banyak maunya! But anyway, gue lagi excited banget nih sama Jagoan Kampung tanggal 2 & 3 Mei nanti. Semoga yang dateng banyak dan kursi-kursi di Storey Hall terisi penuh ya! :) FYI, kalian bisa liat teasernya disini

 

Beberapa hari ini kan gue puasa buat suatu komitmen gitu. Trus hari Selasa adalah hari yang paling berat karena hari itu gue duduk di Union House dan semua orang makan! Huhu. Gak laper sih.. tapi menahan perasaan pengen ngunyah itu berat banget. Hari ini juga sempet berat gitu. Pagi-pagi bangun tidur, gue udah kelaperan berat. Dateng lecture perut udah kruyuk-kruyuk. Gue akhirnya bilang deh “Tuhan, gue yakin deh ya.. kalo gue emang harus puasa, gue bakal kuat sampe nanti saatnya buat buka” dan gue berhasil! Yeay!! 4 hari ini gue berhasil terus lho :D gue yakin lewat puasa ini, apa yang jadi doa-doa gue dan orang lain yang puasa juga bakal terjadi. Amin!

 

Hal lain yang amazing banget, hari ini penuh dengan kejutan-kejutan menyenangkan. Misalnya nih, tadi [seperti kamis-kamis lainnya] gue, Itak dan Epin kumpul. Ternyata ada Steve, Mel, Cintong and Calvin. Selain Calvin, kita semua asalnya dari 1 SD! Dan selain Steve, kita semua ternyata ada di Melbourne! Hahaha. Ngafe-makan-ke farewell Pearle-bowling dan ternyata baru jam 2130. Ckckck.. hari ini panjang sekali ternyata. It was an absolute fun! dan foto-fotonya bisa diliat disini

 

Kejutan yang lain hari ini, Cindy bilang kalo dia diterima di SIFE jadi media officer. Udah seneng abis gue dengernya dan pas gue buka e-mail Uni, gue juga diangkat jadi media officer! Waaaaa… it’s damn cool! I’m just hoping that Matt will get a place in SIFE as well. It would be great to know that there are actually some people you know. Hehehe. And anyways, in July 8-11 there will be a SIFE national competition in Brisbane. I’m hoping that I’ll go to Brisbane with the whole team. Project Manager gue sih bilangnya dia bakal pilih 2-3 orang dari project gue buat pergi. Figer crossed! =D

 

Have a very very great weekend everyone! Have a blessed one!

Noooo! Bukan gue yang graduation. Tapi 2 orang temen gue graduation minggu kemarin. Walopun mereka ada nan jauh di Jakarta sana, gue bisa merasakan atmosfir kegembiraan yang mereka pasti rasain.

Waktu Cael bilang kalo dia bakal diwisuda, gue rasanya senenggggg banget. Gue bukan sodaranya, bukan mamanya, bukan cewenya, tapi gue semangat banget karena orang yang gue kenal udah lama banget ternyata bakalan masuk ke dunia yang sebenernya.

Trus, si Rio juga minggu kemarin diwisuda dari UPH. Kita sempet lost contact buat beberapa lama tapi pas dia lagi skripsi dan mau sidang dia sempet cerita-cerita sama gue. Kita saling berkirim e-mail dan dia cerita tentang semua masalah yang dia hadapin pas ngerjain penelitian buat skripsinya. Maklum, sebagai anak food science dia mesti berurusan sama lab dan hasil penelitian yang hasilnya jauh dari hipotesa. Makannya waktu gue liat foto graduationnya, gue rasanya senengggggg banget! Gue jadi mikir, gue yang gak ada hubungan apa-apa aja seneng banget. Gimana bonyok mereka ya? Pasti bangganya luar biasa!

Well, the real world is waiting for you to do something guys! Best of luck to both of you (:

xoxo, jn~